Week 1: remains and wrongs.

The week started with the recovery of a broken heart and the unwillingness to let go. Because I'm self-involved, I choose songs that accentuate all the emotions I go through. The regret of loosing him and the belief that the love I have for him will resonate in him and we will be together in the end. It Still Remains fit this like a glove. I'd repeat like a mantra "it doesn't matter cause' I'm still yours, give it time." I would tell him these words and I'd hope he'd be willing to take me back. As much as life can be pleasurable and happy without him, life is just that much better with him in it. I really have nothing to lose because what is life if I'm just remembering all that we've been through.

Towards the mid-week these feelings grew and I just couldn't help keeping it in. So I told him in the only way I could. I took my camera and made a video about it. I spilled everything that hurt everything that I wanted. "I took my turn and I will state my case but I could be wrong" was the line that stood out to me during this whole process. I could be wrong about doing everything I did but it was my only chance to salvage what was left in our relationship. His friendship is important me so I walked straight into the dark with good intentions.

For the most part it turned out okay, He says he just wants me to be happy and that's what I am. He says we have to give it more time, which I don't want but I'll wait for him, because he's the one I don't want to get away. listening to Katy Perry's The One That Got Away makes me want to hold onto him because I'm so bent on the thought of being his.

The prelude.

Music like life has grown from simple monotone beats to intricate symphonies that take thousands of listens to hear and appreciate each moment and each sound.

In my life music grows in meaning and purpose.

What this is, in a sense, is my life's mixtape. every month, every week, maybe every day I'll post the songs I listen to over that course and period of time along with the emotions and thoughts provoked through listening to it.

Yes, songs/albums/bands will overlap, but every time I'll be listening to and talking about it I'll have a different thought going through my mind and different perspective.

So let's start this never ending mixtape.